Hiding Away in Plain Sight

I smile, look away. Trying not to linger too long. A fear of revealing, showing too much. Never to be too open. I end up being so closed off as to never make any real connection. Small talk, chatter on topics relating to class or work. Never to fully trust anyone, not even myself. Sometimes least of all myself. Moments of confidence quickly wither. When outside, sunglasses firmly in place, the easy way of avoiding eye contact. Careful, conscious not to look longer than to glance. Look too long the wrong idea might be gotten, or the right one betrayed.